To give or not to give?

In order to go higher

I am at a place where I can not beaer certain compromises I see in my life. I am tired of being stuck, of being a nice Christian, of being respectable and nice.

Someone told me last weekend, at the Winter Retreat (the subject was about strengthening the inner spiritual man), that "It's worth wasting your life away for Jesus." I just looked at him with big, wondering eyes, thinking inside, is he talking about other people's opinion of me wasting my life or his opinion of what a wasted life could be or my opinion of what could be wasting my life? But if I'm not doing what I'm called to do or want to do, am I not wasting my life? Looking back, will I regret trading my dreams for lesser ones just to please other people? Is it worth it for someone else's good opinion?

I wonder if this relates, if this has anything to do with my performance lately at work. I have been dissatisfied with my job for a month or so now. It's compromising the quality of my life in a way..I want to quit. My boss told me today I'm purposely messing up. I think my boss wants to fire me.